Scary Territory, ooooohhhhh

So I am entering the unknown. I have put my gym membership on hold for 4 weeks. This means I will not have my 2 day a week hour long sessions with my trainer/coach/guide/mentor Sule Welch. It's frightening but I feel it's the right decision. I have been feeling overwhelmed with all that needs to be done between now and school starting, keeping the kids entertained everyday during the summer, keeping up with work while finding something for the kids to do, relatives coming to visit. It was starting to stress me out!

Plus I've been sitting at 138 lbs. FOREVER!!!! CURSE YOU 138!!!! I NEVER want to see that number again. I go a little up or a few pounds down but I keep coming back to 138. I guess my bod is happy here but I AM NOT HAPPY. I am 5'1" and this is not where I should be. And one of the key adages I have come away with on my weight loss journey goes thusly:

If you keep doing the same things you will get the same results.

So I am shaking things up by taking the drive to Marietta to work out with Sule out of the picture. I don't feel too frightened because I take him with me wherever I go. This is the genius of the workouts he's created! I now know how to kick my own ass. Also I am upping my cardio in the hopes that it will spur me to lower numbers on the scale. I know that I have to be impeccably precise with what I am eating to get this weight off. I am staying away from almost all processed foods unless it's got a big ole heap of fiber in it!

So, I am off to the heavy bag and the spin bike to get my sweat on and get to my goal. It will happen. Plus I had success over the weekend getting on the bike to watch some Netflix movies that had been sitting in a drawer for a month. Today 'Sherlock Holmes' is coming in the mail and I plan to watch it while spinning my ass off, literally. Bye bye ass.

The Birthday Gauntlet

So, July is birthday month for my family. It actually starts in late June. Planning, gift buying, cake making, party organizing. I'm exhausted. How did I survive and not gain weight through all this? Well, I did have a couple of small (I'm talking tiny) pieces of cake. I was buying and making cakes and I do like sweets. Past experience has taught me if I try to go hardcore, no cake at all, I will end up drawn like a moth to whatever leftover cake there is to be had and attack it like a pit bull with a, well, something attacked by a pit bull which could be anything.

So, no hardcore for me, I know better. I will be stalwart for a certain amount of time and then crumble into a cake eating frenzy in the kitchen. Yeah, it's all about the covert cake eating at that point. Because it's a law that if you stand in the kitchen eating leftover cake and you don't even use a fork then there are NO CALORIES! I bet you knew that already! But this journey has been all about not repeating past mistakes. I have really learned that if you keep doing the same things you will ABSOLUTELY get the same results.

So I had small nibbles of cake and survived just fine. I also got on the bike for a half hour instead of collapsing and watching tv after William's birthday party. Hey, I even gave my popcorn to the kid next to me! I passed up movie popcorn - that is how bad I want this last bit of weight off!

Also I was in charge of the menu at the celebration at my folks' place and I made sure to get a veggie platter so I knew I would have something to eat. Give me veggies and hummus and I can avoid the mini tacos and the chips, salsa and queso. Ha - take that you sizzling, mini beef tacos from Trader Joe's! I don't need you! I am eating carrots and grape tomatoes and edamame hummus - in your face you oily bits of meaty goodness! As Coach Sule says not having a plan is a plan to fail.