Ok, confession: I haven't gotten on the scale in a couple of weeks. I am working hard, watching what I eat, eating fruits, veggies and nuts first before any processed foods, getting the dog walked, getting on the bike regularly. So I know I have probably lost a bit but I feel like I've been fighting these same 5 lbs. for MONTHS. I am sick of those numbers. I never want to see 138 on the scale again. Don't get me wrong - that's a far cry from 158, 188 or 208. I will never see those numbers again, ever. But I have been loitering, wandering and malingering in the 130's forever. I think it's my own personal weight loss Purgatory. I am Sisyphus and 138 is my big ol' rock. I keep pushing it away and it keeps freaking rolling over me. So in order to not see those numbers I have been avoiding the scale. I don't want to get demoralized by those numbers so I am trying to lose the weight and then get on the scale so I don't have to deal with it. How is that for coping? Well, it's better than just giving up. And I wish I knew why my body is so comfortable at this weight.
The other issue plaguing me a bit is my right heel. It's being crappy and I wish my heel would just heal already! I don't know what the issue is but it hurts, and then it really hurts when I run. So I've had to stop running. I replaced running with the spin bike but I gotta tell ya, nothing melts my ass like running so I'm quite peevish that it's been taken off the menu. I have been off my foot and wearing a brace and icing it at night. And....it is (feeling better), she said as cautiously and optimistically as possible while not jinxing it.
So maybe I will cowboy up and get on the scale in the morning. Or, maybe I"ll wait until next week hoping for some really good numbers. It's like scale lottery! I'll let you know when I grow a pair and face the numbers.
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